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Sunday, December 25, 2011

It's 25th December !

I'm sure all of you are familiar of this date. Yes, it is Christmas day. This is just a short entry from me. So, I would keep it simple.

First of all, I would like to wish Merry Christmas to all my blog viewers and also to my fellow friends out there, where ever you are in the world, yes you are my friend :) Friends and friends to be. If we see that all of us are related in some way. So yes, you are my friend.

And I would like to wish Happy New year too ! Since there is only about 5 days 'till New Years Eve, I would like to wish it too. Don't worry, I'll be updating soon too. Since today I need to pack to go back to my hometown. My grandpa is not feeling well, pray for him hopes he gets better soon ya?

Any hows, Happy Holidays !


Wednesday, December 14, 2011

100th Anniversary of Titanic

Grab your boarding pass and let us enter Titanic once more. Bringing back what had happened nearly 100 years ago. The tragic sinking of Titanic that only 700++ survive meanwhile thousands died in the icy cold water of the ocean. 

I purposely write this in a different post because I want to make sure it stands out. 100th anniversary of Titanic. I am sure that all of you know about the legendary sinking ship Titanic. Marina Bay Sands is doing an exhibition now until the 12th of April 2012 in celebrating and remembering all the events that took place of this magnificent ship. The exhibition is located at the art science museum that is located next to the mall where I said before in my precious post. It is also located next to the louis Vuitton unique building.

When I entered the museum, the first thing that greeted me, was this photo below
The real photo of the titanic back then. I don't know why it sets me on goosebumps. Thinking that I would actually see all those artifacts that used to be in Titanic. The real thing. All this moment I only imagine that I had the chance to see all of these. And, I guess, I did get the chance to see all those artifacts. All of those things that was on the seabed that might not be able to see by humans anymore. I am grateful for it.

The experience while I was walking in the exhibition, ecstatic. I am really amazed how they had set up the place so well. It's like I was there in the ship. They showed from the start until the end. The birth of Titanic, how it was build, who was the person behind it, what day it departs, how was the cabin like for the 1st class, 2nd class and 3rd class. How the engine room looks like, the dining, the reading room, the smoking room. Everything about it until the day that Titanic hit the ice burg. It's surprising that they place a real ice in the exhibition. It was cold. They even had the names who had survived and the one did not survived during the tragic moment. Behind each boarding pass there were details on every passenger that boarded Titanic. So we can actually see were those passengers survived or not.

In my opinion, Titanic could have last longer than it should be. The sad memories could have turn into a wonderful and beautiful memories about the ship. But then there wouldn't be any Titanic romance story and all other stuffs. Ok, I'm starting to crap. So, that is all form me. Anyone interested to go for this exhibition you guys can just check it out from google. Cheers !

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

A Road Trip...

Since Selangor had a long weekend last week, so my family and I decided to go somewhere. After one whole day of thinking, finally we came out with a place. Singapore. Yes, Singapore again. But this time, it's a different place. Since last time I went to Universal Studios, so this time we decided to go to Marina Bay Sands. Some of you might think what do they have over there? Roller-coasters? Extreme theme parks? Well, you are about to find out about it.

First and foremost, before we hit to Marina bay, there is a place where you have to stop first when you are in Singapore. Singapore Zam Zam Restaurant. This is a must place that you should go. I highly recommend it. Zam Zam Restaurant is located in Arab Street, Singapore. It's near the Sultan Mosque. Yes yes, it's halal food there. Arab street is the place where you can get the halal food in Singapore. Just an info for those who haven't been to Singapore. So, what food can be found in Zam Zam? Of course this is the place where you can get the best Murtabak in Singapore. It is so nice that you just want to eat everything for yourself. Trust me, when I shared it with my friends last time, it was not enough for the 3 of us. HAHA ! The thickness of the murtabak, the goodness of the meat. The way they cook it, everything is just there. So below are just some of the photos that I took after having a delicious lunch there.

 ^Look at all of those meat he is putting in !

After the delightful lunch, we set off our journey to Marina Bay Sands. What is special about this place? Wanna know? Check out this photo below
Welcome to the Gateway of Marina Bay Sands

Didn't I tell you it's awesome. The swimming pool of this hotel is located on the 57th floor. Form this level you could almost see the entire of Singapore. And the breeze, don't even mention about it. It was nice. I love the night view over there. It was full of lights. Lucky as I was, it was the full moon during that time. It was a lovely night to have a swim with my sisters. The rooms that we booked was nice and comfy too. It was a nice stay there. Oh, just to let you guys know, the hotel is linked to the shopping center too. So, no need to fuss about going shopping. It's just a walking distance. So walk ok people. Here is a little peek on how the mall looks like
Ain't it lovely?

After one night stay in Marina Bay, it was time for us to leave the place. Back to Malaysia. You think it ends here? Nahh.. When we got back to Malaysia, I asked my parents if we could go and have dinner in Malacca. Wish granted, we set off to Umbai. Umbai is the place where you can get the best Ikan Bakar in Melaka. Especially Parameswara Restaurant. But I was unlucky, Parameswara wasn't open on the day i went. Felt like shedding some tears at the moment. But still we went to other restaurant that was around there. And it wasn't bad either. Still I love to go to Parameswara. Hope when I go there next time I could get my hands on the Parameswara food.

When we had filled our tummies, we set our course back to home. Even though it was just a short trip. But it was a fun one. Filled with memories that would be cherish in the future...

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Korang Rasa Rasa...?

Saya tak nak kata banyak la, pada pendapat korang. Apa yang ditunjukkan dalam gambar ini? Ini dari pandangan saya, asap rokok dan juga abu abu rokok boleh mencemarkan alam sekitar kita. Ia menyumbang lagi kepada pemanasan global yang sedang kita lalui sekarang. Renung renungkan...


Have you guys seen this paper bag before? If yes, I'm sure that you would have taste it. But to those who haven't got a clue what I'm talking here, so let me share it now.

Garrett Popcorn Store. It's not just any ordinary popcorn that you buy to go for the movies and just chuck into your mouth. To me, Garrett offers more than that, the flavour and texture of the popcorn is so different from any other popcorn that you can find. Ok, I start to sound like those people on the TV giving comments on food.

I started to get to know about Garret when I was in Universal Studio Singapore. At first I thought it would just gonna be the same old popcorn that I keep eating. But it was totally different from what I had expect it would be. The first bite of the popcorn was so good that I can't stop consuming it.

CARAMEL CRISP ! This flavour is just so hard to resists. The taste of the caramel makes you all hype up and happy. At least it did it to me. One thing about Garrett Popcorn, the coating that they made is just right. Because it sticks to the entire popcorn. So when ever you take a bite of a single popcorn, you can get all the flavour there. Currently eating Garrett right now. HAHA !

I'm guessing some of you would go "Awh, Singapore? All the way to Singapore just for a popcorn? This is just wasting my time..." Well, guess what people, Garrett has opened it's outlet here in Malaysia ! So no need to worry about going all the way to Singapore for the popcorn. You can get it here ! The taste is exactly same as it is in Singapore. 

The one that is located in Malaysia can be found in Suria KLCC. It's easy to find it. It's near Auntie Anne's Pretzels and also Maybank. So, what are you waiting for? go give it a try !

Friday, December 2, 2011

Communication and Media Studies

Surely why some of you are wondering why am I writing about Masscomm. I'm sure that many of you know, Masscomm involves a lot with media. And that is what practically everyone is thinking. Media, media and media. But have you ever thought other than that? Masscomm is not just about being famous artist or being in front of the camera and being a reporter or paparazzi. There is more to it.

Masscomm has a wide range of variety courses that is under it. Of course among it will be Journalism, Broadcasting, Advertising.. This is what mainly the people know. But do you guys know that Public Relation, Interpersonal Communication, Instructional Communication, Publishing, Communication Policy and Regulation and some other more. See there are many other things to it. Not just about being famous in front of the television and let paparazzi follow you everywhere.

Many people think that Masscomm is not a good course to take when is studied in Universities, they say that Masscomm is a bad influence on the generation, don't have a life, no money, no job. Guess what, Those people that you guys keep thinking are the ones who do not know how to lead their life. Meanwhile the others that studied under Masscomm succeed in many things. And can get a lot of money. Example that we can see, take it from a corporate world. Public Relation is the easiest way to see it. Surely many of you know that a Public Relation Officer can do tones of money right? Especially when the person is working under a PR company. Like the Malays always love to say it. Masyukkk bro~

This is just a short one by me. Because it irritates me when ever I introduce myself and tell that I'm a Masscomm student, all of them would go. "Ohhh.. Ni mesti nak duduk depan TV tak pun jadi wartawan kan?" It gets on my nerve. So yeah. Basically, there are tones of things that is related to Masscomm. So, please people. Don't think that Masscomm is a bad thing. People make perception that leads to negative things.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Kerja Oh Kerja...

Ya, saya sedang bekerja sekarang. Akibat tidak mahu membazirkan waktu yang ada, saya bekerja. Kerja Oh kerja... Kepada mereka yang pernah lalui alam pekerjaan ini, macam macam korang adh rasa bukan? Saya ni budak baru belajar, baru belajar nak kerja. Ye kerja... Kerja Oh Kerja...

Masalah sekarang ni bosan, tak da kerja. Pelik bukan? Orang tak nak kerja, tapi kita cari kerja. Aisehh, bajet nak kerja banyak. HAHA. Kerja saya ni tak la bergaji, allownce je dapat. Nama pun internship. Kerja untuk pengalaman sahaja. Tidak mengapa, internship sebenar saya akan  pergi ke tempat lain pula untuk meneruskan perjuangan ini.

Bila agaknya saya boleh bekerja. Seakrang ni tak terasa kerjanya. Mungkin bila orang baru tu masuk rasa la kerjanya. Rasanya la.. Kerja saya sekarang ni, pasang earphone, buka lagu, dan merenung masa depan. Tak da kerja sangat. Macam ni la jadinya. Tapi rasanya kalau orang lain, tak da kerja ni, berjimba sana sini la kot. Kalau tak da Encik A sebelah meja saya dengan laptop ni, mati dah rasanya saya ni. Kerja office ni, kalau duduk berjam jam tanpa apa apa. Boleh jadi gila agaknya. Mana taknya. Menonong je dalam office yang nyaman dengan penghawa dingin sampai nak beku ini.

Tapi, bila kerja dalam office ni, macam macam ragam boleh tengok. Ada orang macam ni, ada orang macam tu. Peribahasa melayu, Banyak udang banyak garam, Banyak orang banyak ragam. Memang macam macam ragam dapat tengok. Sana sini tak kene. Ini baru jadi trainee. Kalau dah kerja betul betul nanti macam mana? Parah boleh tengok nanti.

Tapi dalam masa yang sama, ada kebaikan yang boleh dicari. Walaupun masih awak untuk dikatakan *sebab baru kerja untuk 4 hari* Boleh saya ambil pengajaran supaya tidak bersikap demikian dalam kerjaya saya masa hadapan. Biarlah kita disegani dengan perkara perkara yang baik yang kita lakukan. Buat sesuatu dengan tulus ikhlas dan penting untuk pengalaman. Biasa lah, pengalaman membuat kita menjadi matang. Harap ia mematangkan saya lagi. Sebab saya memang kurang matang.

Saya betul betul harap, dengan pengalaman saya ada nanti, membuat saya lebih semangat untuk belajar. Maklumlah dapat tahu serba sikit dalam bidang yang akan diceburi. Sekali gus mendapat markah tinggi untuk peperiksaan dan akan terus ke luar negara. Wah, cita cita tinggi. Tak pe, cita cita itu ada. Usaha je tinggal untuk dilakukan.

Rasanya sampai sini saja bebelan saya. Kembali ke status mengalok dan tunggu masa untuk di beri tugasan. Hai kerja... Bila nak mula....

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Kita telah cuba...

Mungkin belum masanya lagi untuk kita sampai ke Olimpik. Tidak mengapa, sekurang kurangnya kita telah mencuba. Bak kata omputeh, milestones tu ada. Mungkin kali ini kita tidak dapat naik ke peringkat seterusnya, tidak mengapa. Ada lagi peluang akan datang, yang penting kita bersedia.

Saya berbangga dengan Harimau Muda yang telah beraksi dengan baik. Macam saya kata tadi la, bukan rezeki lagi nak jejak Olimpik. Tidak mengapa Harimau Muda. Piala sukan SEA dalam genggaman kita lagi, jadikan ia sebagai satu dorongan untuk memperbaiki apa yang perlu. Harimau Muda sentiasa di hati !

Ini pula kepada penyokong Malaysia di luar sana. Saya agak terkilan melihat ada yang meninggalkan stadium sebelum permainan tamat. Pada pandangan saya, tidak sepatutnya lakukan begitu, sokonglah Harimau Muda hingga masa penghabisan, itu baru saya dapat kira sebagai penyokong Malaysia sejati. Ingatlah, adat permainan menang dan kalah itu. Jangan la kutuk mereka. Mereka telah lakukan yang terbaik. Kita sepatutnya memberi sokongan yang konsisten kepada mereka. Jangan kritik mereka. Sokong sokong dan teruskan sokongan. Kalau kejap nak sokong, kejap nak kutuk. Baik tak payah jadi penyokong je la eh :)

Apa apapun, Harimau Muda, anda telah lakukan yang terbaik :) InsyaALLAH kita akan ada peluang lagi.

Ini sahabat saya Hazim Shauki. Semangat tak dia? HAHA!
*credits to you Hazim for making me still semangat :D

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Harimau Muda Mengaum !

Setelah menunggu hampir 5 jam perlawanan antara Malaysia dan Indonesia, akhirnya segala galanya telah terjawab. Alhamdulillah Harimau Muda kita telah menjuarai perlawanan ini. Saya amat bangga dengan prestasi yang telah ditunjukan oleh pemain pemain kita ini. Amat bangga sekali.

Tapi agak sedih kerana pemain pemain kita hanya dapat menyambut kegembiraan hanya sementara di dalam stadium. Terpaksa naik kereta perisai untuk keselamatan mereka. Dan agak sedih juga, ada sesetengah pihak yang tidak berpuas hati atas kemenangan ini mahu membalas dendam yang bukan bukan. Kalau boleh jangan lah bersikap begitu. Adat permainan, mesti ada yang menang dan ada yang kalah bukan? Mungkin bukan rezeki lagi untuk menang.

Kepada rakyat Malaysia, kita pun jangan la hentikan sorakan yang sokongan kita kepada Harimau Malaya kita. Walau apa jadi dalam apa apa perlawanan, kita harus tetap sokong mereka tidak kira apa. Mereka telah usaha sedaya upaya mereka, jadi kita sebagai penyokong, terus mendoakan kejayaan mereka dan sokong mereka SELAMANYA ~

*btw, Mohd Muslim Ahmad, anda sangat comel ! Lagi lagi masa perlawanan semalam nak dekat2 habis bila pemain indonesia tu jatuh sendiri, Muslim cepat cepat kata bukan salah dia. COMEL :D !
Dapat jumpa Muslim saya akan jadi sangat gembira :D Pemain Harimau Muda berjersey 24 kegemaran ku !
2-4 Hari lahir saya tu xD

Gol Kemenangan Malaysia !


Saturday, November 12, 2011

Feel Good About Yourself.

Mostly people would not feel good about themselves. Why? It is because they don't see what they have to themselves but only see what other people have that they don't have. So they feel bad about themselves for not having it. NOT GOOD.

All of you should know that God made us special in other ways. We might be good at what the other people are good in, but we have our own talents and skills that is different from the others that makes us unique and special. You are amazing, Just the way you are. That's what Bruno Mars said, and yes, it is true. Just as I said it earlier.

This is from my experience, I keep feeling bad about things that happen to me and I keep feeling down that I don't have what others have. I feel like I'm incomplete. Ever since I was a little girl, until the senior year of high school. I keep envying my friends who have things that I want that I don't have. That time, how I wish I could be like them. How could I be free and all of the other things like them. But when I furthered my studies later on, I started to realize that, I don't need to be like them. I am who I am. I have my own grounds to stand on, I can be firm in my own ways that people would accept, and most importantly, I feel great about myself.

I achieve many things when I am myself, I got to know my strengths and weaknesses. I improve myself on things and yet still many things need to be improved on. And it's fun to be myself. When I was back then, I wanted attention from people, to be well known and such, but I didn't manage that, and yet it turn around the other way that people hated me because of my attitude and such. After I opened my eyes to see things differently, I manage to come out from that zone I was in, and start a new life of just being who I am. Seriously, people would accept you better.

You need to know how to control yourself. At times you can be the goofy person you are, and also there are times you need to stand your grounds and say what you need to say. You need to learn to know the environment and such. It was a though thing to do for me, since I was so childish back then. But, Alhamdulillah, with the help from the people around me, I manage to come out of it and become a better person, yet still to improve. Seriously need to remind myself that I need to improve. TEEHEE.

My life experience when I was in UiTM Alor Gajah, truly build me up. Even I was rebellious to my mom to become one of the high committee in my college, but I didn't regret it. It changed me and made me open up to things that I didn't see earlier. And I'm extremely grateful about it.

Other than that, last time when I got my SPM result, it wasn't as good I thought it would be. My marks wasn't great and it's considered lucky that I made it to UiTM. People keep saying that,

"Well, guess she got it with the help of her mother. You know that her mother is a lecturer there."  

Ouch, pain in the ear much? It hurt me badly in my heart to know that was people saying about me. There was even a time that someone said that, I don't even deserve to be in UiTM or even to continue my studies. That was a random person that I didn't even know. Thankful I had my mom's friend that time to back me up. She said that, it's a person's REZEKI to get it. She might not have good grades, but she manage to get in with the things that the others see in her. *I'm a masscomm student, so we had to go for interview and such, so I guess they saw something in me? o.O
I thank my mother's friend that day. And now, I've proved myself that I can achieve things without the help of my mother. Wanna know why? Because I manage to get an offer to do fast track for my degree. At first it didn't hit me, but when my mom pointed it out to me, I went, Yeah.. I did it myself this time without her help. All by myself. I managed it and proud of it, and I know that I can achieve more.

So you know, I had though time trying to find myself deep within me. But, with some guidance from a dear person of me, my parents and friends, I manage it. And still needs more improvements. And yes, I feel good about myself. You should too :)

This song is for you people out there. Feel good about yourself.
Cheers :D

Friday, November 11, 2011

Kenape mereka ni...?

Seperti yang korang semua tahu, hari ini merupakan tarikh yang begitu cantik. 11.11.11. Cantik kan? Akan tetapi, apabila saya melihat balik semalam, perbualan di Facebook dan juga Twitter, macam macam ada. Ada yang seronok menyambut kedatangan tarikh ini, ada yang mengatakan, apa istimewa tarikh ini. Macam macam ada. Tapi yang tak tahannya, bila saya cuba mengemukakan pendapat saya mengenai ada kebaikan dan keburukan sesuatu perkara, kenapa sesetengah pihak hanya nak melihat ia dari perspektif yang negatif? Seperti yang saya kata, ada baik buruknya.

Ok, dari sudut negatif yang ketara kita nampak, pada tarikh ini, ramai antara kalangan remaja ni, nak cari pasangan baru, keluar berdating, keluar jalan, pergi sana, pergi sini. Kalau dilihatkan, memang burukkan semua ini? Ya, saya sendiri setuju semua perkara ini tidak elok sebenarnya. Tapi kan, kenape korang hanya melihat akan semua perkara ini dan tidak melakukan apa apa? Kenape tidak cuba menasihatkan mereka? Anda semua boleh lakukan, cuma berani ataupun tidak. Kalau orang yang terlampau taksub sangat tu, cuba lah beri nasihat perlahan lahan kepada dia. Mana tahu, dengan kegigihan anda untuk membantu rakan anda, Allah juga memberi pertolongan kepada anda. Betul tak? 

Menurut Uztaz Azhar Idrus, Tanpa iktikad apa apa, kelebihan pada tarikh tersebut tidak berdosa, tapi bodoh. Sebenarnya, pada pandangan saya, tidak lah berapa bodoh perkara ini, ia cuma no yang cantik. Kalau korang lihat balik lah kan, sejak masuk era 2000, ramai dah mula trend tarikh ni. Ambil contoh tahun lepas 2010. Ramai yang post pasal tarikh 10.10.10 apa bagai, kenape sekarang korang nak bertanya itu ini? Tidak ke pelik tu? Ini sekadar pandangan saya, sokong atau tidak, itu terpulang kepada anda semua. Saya tidak ada kuasa untuk menyekat apa yang anda fikirkan.

Sekarang mari kita lihat dari segi positif. Kan tarikh ini cantik dan senang diingat bukan? Ada perkara perkara yang baik akan berlaku juga, seperti contoh, pada tarikh ini, banyak Masjid baru akan terbina, syaitan pula akan menangis. Kenape? Korang sendiri boleh tahu kenape kan? Selain itu, ini saya baca dari twitter, ada sahabat saya bertanya, apa nak dilakukan kepada tarikh ini, kemudian ada sahabat dia yang berkata, pergilah baca Yassin lagi dari membazir waktu. Kita tidak perlu melihat perkara ini dari sudut negatif saja, ini tengok, boleh je pergi baca Yassin, menunaikan solat solat sunat yang ada, meningkatkan pembacaan Al-Quran. Kan elok tu.

Semalam saya suka tengok tweet dari kawan saya Shahril Fawzy, (mesti ramai kenal dia kan? HAHA. BTW, click nama dia kalau nak tengok blog dia) Tweet dia betul betul buat saya senyum. Ini yang dia kata:

The only 1 Allah, The only 1 heart, The only 1 day, the only 1 month, the only 1 year and the only 1 world. Hello 11 11 11

Bukan kah ini perkara yang baik? Kita mengingati ALLAH. Tidak salah kan? Tapi, bukan pada tarikh ini hanya ingat ALLAH. Setiap hari kita sepatutnya ingat ALLAH. Tengok, kebaikan telah terjadi di sini bukan? Bukan duk merapu meraban pasal nak kapel apa bagai. Lagi di Facebook yang baru saya lihat, 

11.11.11 ~ nothing special except --> Today is FRIDAY ~

Specialnya tarikh 11.11.11 ~ sebab ~~> Jumaat penghulu segala hari dan pada hari jumaat juga:

1) Allah ciptakan Adam ,
2) Allah turunkan Nabi Adam ke bumi,
3) Allah mematikan Nabi Adam,
4) Pada hari itu juga ada satu saat yang tidak ada seorang hamba pun yang memohon sesuatu, kecuali Allah akan perkenankan permohonannya, selagi ia tidak meminta sesuatu yang haram.
5) Pada hari itu juga akan terjadinya hari kiamat. Tidak ada satu malaikat pun, sekalipun yang amat dekat kedudukannya di sisi Allah, langit, bumi, angin, gunung, juga lautan, melainkan kesemuanya memohon belas kasihan pada hari tersebut.

( Riwayat Hadis Muslim)

Ada kebaikan dalam setiap perkara yang terjadi sesuatu keburukan itu, kita sebagai manusia, seelok eloknya, lihat sesuatu perkara dari satu sudut, lihatlah juga dari sudut lain. Wallahualam...

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Oh My Result

Can't really believe it. After 3 months of studying and 1 month of semester break, results is finally coming ! Super scary. I'm guessing that everyone is anxious by now to get to know their results tomorrow. I know I am. I could only pray to God now and hope for the best.

Really wish that this semester was better than the last. If not surely I'll get my head off me. Of course it is not the end of things, just that, it's not easy to get the grades up. Oh how I wish that they know I'm working so hard and SMART too ok, to bring my grades up. I know I may play here and there, but that's the part of studying life right?

So many things had happened during this semester break. I just hope that things would fall back into place. Starting with this result. I would love to start fresh and be energetic with new things that I would face next semester.

Dear God, I've done my best for my exam and studies this semester. I pray to you that it would come out good. And I dearly pray to my friends too... Amin...

Tuesday, November 1, 2011


Entry bulan November ni bermula dengan kisah agak sedih. DENDAM. Dendam merupakan perkara yang sering kita dengar apabila seseorang tidak puas hati terhadap orang lain bukan? Yang saya pelik, kenapa perlu ada dendam dalam dunia ni? Tidak cukup lagi ke perkara negatif yang sudah sedia ada di dalam dunia ini? Mengikut dari apa yang saya baca dari Kamus Dewan dan Pustaka, dendam merupakan sesuatu perasaan akibat dari perkara yang tidak elok telah berlaku kepada seseorang yang di lakukan oleh orang lain terhadap dirinya. 

Mesti ramai antara kita pernah dendam antara satu sama lain. Macam macam perkara yang kita berdendam. Tapi sekarang ni, saya nak lihat dari satu sudut di mana, perlukah kita berdendam dengan seorang yang tidak berdendam dengan kita? Dan juga, berdendam dengan seorang yang telah memaafkan diri kita dengan keselahan kita? 

Amik contoh yang selalu perkara dendam ni akan terjadi. Percintaan. Ya cinta. Sebab cinta, ramai yang berdendam dengan bekas kekasih mereka. Kenapa? Apa yang anda akan dapat kalau anda berdendam dengan dia? Pahala ka? Rasanya tidak. Dosa adalah. Rasa puas hati setelah membalas dendam? Berapa lama akan rasa puas tu? Hingga ke hujung nyawa? Rasa rasanya, hanya sementara akan merasakan kepuasan di dalam hati. Selepas itu? Di selebungi kekesalan pula? Macam tu?

Contoh seterusnya, kalau kita ada buat salah kepada seseorang dan kemudian kita meminta maaf kepada orang itu. Patut ke kita dendam lagi dengan insan itu? Sedagkan dia sudah memohon maaf atas kesilapan dia, dan tidak menganggu hidup mereka lagi. Perlu lagi ka mengungkit? Perlua ka mencari jalan untuk membalas dendam? Sekali lagi, supaya mereka sakit kembali? Cuba la kalau seseorang itu memang sudah terluka dengan perkara perkara yang terjadi di sekelilingnya. Kita mahu tambah ka kesakitan yang di alami? Seperti luka yang masih baru, disapu garam. Apa rasa dia? Pedih perit bukan? Sedangkan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W boleh memaafkan umatnya yang telah melalukan pelbagai perkara yang amat dasyat lagi. Inikan kita sebagai manusia biasa. 

Sepatutnya, kita tidak perlu ada sifat dendam ini. Hanya akan merosakkan manusia sahaja. Oleh sebab dendam, banyak terjadi, persahabatan terputus, talian persaudaraan juga boleh terputus. Menjatuhkan maruah kaum sendiri dan tidak akan maju. Ini ke yang kita nak? Ubah la untuk kebaikan. Jangan hanya nak duduk dalam zon keselesaan anda dan melakukan perkara perkara yang boleh menyakitkan hati orang. Kalau tidak berubah sekarang, bila lagi nak? Betulkan?

Saya nak tanya pendapat anda sekalian, dengan contoh contoh yang saya bagi dekat atas sana. Apa yang korang rasa? Dan apa perkara yang kita boleh lakukan untuk minimum kan perkara dendam ini. Saya rasa mesti ramai yang ada pendapat masing masing bukan? Jadi, apa salahnya kita berkongsi bukan? 

Cuba perhati gambar gambar ini, dan hayati kata katanya

Monday, October 17, 2011

Saya Anak 1 Malaysia

Pada tarikh 14hb Oktober 2011 telah diadakan satu perhimpunan dinamakan Perhimpunan Kami Anak 1 Malaysia. Haaaaaa... Nak cerita la ni. Perhimpunan ni melibatkan seluruh Program Latihan Khidmat Negara (PLKN) di seluruh Malaysia, termasuk Sabah dan Sarawak. Gempak tak bunyi dia?

Pada mereka yang telah lalui saat saat manis pahit getir di PLKN, mesti merindui semua saat saat itu. Setiap detik takkan dilupakan melalui aktiviti aktivit yang telah di sediakan untuk para pelatih kem. Masa perhimpunan ni, semestinya ramai yang akan teringat kisah masing masing di kem. Tambah lagi apabila dapat berjumpa dengan para jurulatih yang dicintai. Teringat pula, masa masa dulu di kem. Kena marah, kena lari 5 pusingan kolam. Haha ! Rindu betul. Lagi lagi rakan rakan yang ada. Syahdu pula rasa. Saat saat terindah itu menjalani kehidupan selama 3 bulan. 3 bulan yang sangat bermakna dan mengubah diriku.

Perhimpunan ini diadakan untuk menyambut anak anak atau pun boleh dikatakan, bekas bekas, para pelatih dan juga para pelatih yang akan datang untuk PLKN. Selain itu, perhimpunan ni diadakan untuk memupuk sikap 1 Malaysia di kalangan para remaja. Masa ni tak ramai bekas bekas pelatih Desa Rimba (Nama kem ku), ada. Yang ada pun beberapa kerat. Tapi seronok dapat jumpa diaorang ni balik. Mana tak nya. lama terpisah selepas habis kem. Lagi lagi diri ni balik awal dari kem atas sebab sebab tertentu. Sedih tinggalkan kawan kawan kem awal. Kawan kawan yang ada masa tu pun adik adik Jerung kesayangan ku lah siapa lagi. Tapi tak sangka Awie (seorang wira Charlie yang berasal dari Perak) dapat turun padang. Seronok ada dia. Nasib la awie ada. kalau tak, tak tau la ape jadi. Kawan seperjuangan ku, Dann pun ada. Kami budak budak Charlie ! HAHA ! Charlie hot stuff dekat kem kami :D

Aktiviti yang ada biasa saja, banyak persembahan. Tapi, persembahan paling menarik pada malam tu, bila ada macam diaorang ni buat kisah suka duka dalam kem. Kelakar tengok. Sambil tu teringat detik detik masa mula mula masuk kem. Cerita punya cerita rasa nak nangis pun ada masa tu. Ye la, siapa tak sedih meningatkan kisah masing masing di kem PLKN sendiri. Kalau dapat diulangi semula, diri ini nak balik masuk kem PLKN. Terasa sangat sekejap masa berlalu menjalani aktivi dalam kem. Kalaulah peluang tu ada, pasti ramai nak kembali.

Ini sedikit nasihat kepada adik adik yang akan menyertai kem PLKN ni dan bergelar Pelatih PLKN. Jangan bimbang dengan apa yang korang akan hadapi, semua itu akan membentuk diri anda apabila anda semua tamatkn sesi latihan anda di PLKN. Percayalah, PLKN merupakan satu pengalaman hidup yang korang akan sentiasa ingat selama lamanya. Tidak rugi pergi. Tapi akan rugi kalau tidak pergi dan menyertai aktiviti yang ada. Macam macam ragam korang akan lihat nanti yang pada akhirnya akan membantu sedikit dalam kehidupan anda di luar kelak. Jadi, jangan takut, jangan ada tanggapan negatif dalam diri, dan jangan anggap PLKN ini satu beban bagi anda. Sebab anda akan merindui suasana di dalam kem dan juga rakan rakan anda yang anda kenal yang telah menjadi seperti adik beradik anda. Macam saya, pasukan Charlie di Kem PLKN Desa Rimba Kuala Kangsar, menjadi adik beradik yang sangat rapat, dan ada yang jumpa buah hati yang kekal sampai ke sekarang. Haha.

Adik beradik Jerung. Kak Long sentiasa merindui korang semua. Harap 1 masa nanti, kita akan berjumpa dan buat perhimpunan kita sendiri. Amacam?

Kem PLKN Desa Rimba sentiasa di hatiku
Bersama jurulatih Kem PLKN Desa Rimba
Jurulatih Kompeni Charlie dan 2 bekas 2 balak wirawati Charlie 
Adik adik jerung dan rakan :P
Awie ! Adik jerung paling rapat :D
Walaupun kami berbeza kumpulan, Dann tetap mantop !
Saya Anak 1 Malaysia !
Ni pelatih siri ke 8 kumpulan 3
Happy korang semua ada :)

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Rest in Peace dear one.

Some people might not even bother to read about this post, but I know some would. Today I loose a dearest cat of mine. It was hard to accept that that cute fuzzy cat had left us forever. No more chasing him around here and there and goofing around with him. This entry is attribute to those who had lost a pet that they love.

This is Stripey, he is among the first ones that was born in my family. He and his sisters all together 4 of them. Baby (may he rest in peace too), Stripey, Snowy and Fabulous. Born on the year of 2010. Yup, they are 1 years old. Among these 4, Stripey and Snowy are the hardest to take care of. Coz, they just love to sneak out of the house and walk around here and there. But, they are nice cats. In the family, stripey is considered a lovely cat with his fluffy fur and cute cuddly face. Almost everyone that visit to the house would start to like him straight away. One thing about Stripey, he loves to show off his beautiful tail. It is beautiful, seriously everyone would go "OHHMAYGAWD ! Look at his tail.. Long and fluffy.." Some even said "Boleh jadi blusher punya brush ni..." Sounds funny. TEEHEE.

2 days back, something happened, Stripey came back home and started to vomit his food. We thought it was just something with the food that we gave, we did all we can to make him feel better. But, it continued for the next days. My mom said, that Stripey might ate a rat poison. That's why he was vomiting like that. That night, Stripey didn't came home. We tried looking for him, yet still couldn't be found. The next day (that is today), a neighbor cam to the house and said that they found Stripey dead behind their house. I was shock to see Stripey gone. When I told everybody in my family about it, they were even shock with the news. We had loose a great cat of the family.

I really do hope that Stripey would be ok in the afterlife. Stripey, I'm sorry for all the things that I've done. We all love you in the family. We all cherish you of being a part in our family. We would always remember you. Love you my fuzzy kitty..

Thursday, October 6, 2011

End of Semester 3

Seems like it's only yesterday that I just took step to register myself as a 3rd semester student in UiTM. Guess it's the end of it already. Sweet memories had been made this semester. Awesome classmates, cool roommates, friendly friends. I'm already starting to miss all of those hectic moments we had together.

My mom said that this semester is the toughest semester ever. Well, it is. Seeing with all the subjects that I took, News writing, Psychology, Instructional Communication, Communication in Islam, English for Academic Purposes and the thing that I'm really interested in, Public Relation. Even it's like only 6 subjects, but it's challenging for me. I need to manage my time with my duties to the college of my life (Tun Fatimah ROCKS!), and committing myself to studies. It wasn't easy, but I try to manage it as good as possible. Now I just hope that my result would come out good. *Dear God, please help to to get good grades this semester. Amin...

The thing about this semester, I feel closer to my classmates then the past two semester. Seriously. I never felt united with them like this. We hang out together, play futsal, bowling and ate dinner all together. But, I'm guessing that it would only last this semester, since some of them are setting a foot a head before us to take fast track in Degree. Surely the others who stay back to finish their Diploma would miss the laughter and fun we had together. MC110 class of H, you guys rock ! Surely we will meet again for the next semester known as MC110 4H :D [Sounds sooo cool, and sooo senior. HAHAHA!]

Roomies ! Atikah, Izzati and a cute junior Wan Khalida. Had tones of fun with them too. Especially when Ain and Eja comes into the room and start to make some noise and do crazy stuffs, I'll usually just look at the things that they are doing and laugh at it. Only at times I feel like joining. Coz, it's fun just to see them doing the crazy things and laughing at it. Matured girls, yet silly when the time comes. But the fun part when one of us started to act like a mother and ask us to stop and everything goes even more wild. *imguessingthatswhywanalwaysstayedinherfriendsroom.sorrywan!* TEEHEE :D  But I know you don't mind it right right right?

All in all, it's a semester that I will never forget. Memories cherish and kept forever. I miss all of you lots in UiTM Already ! Yes, Including you, even though I might not know you. Hey, you're an UiTM student too right? Without you guys, UiTM Lendu, Alor Gajah surely would be a graveyard. Empty and lifeless. HAHAHA! Can't wait to start semester 4 back. More challenges to overcome and obstacles to avoid. See you guys soon ! UiTM DiHati ku <3

 Class futsal :)
 Bowling at MIBC Melaka. Total fun with you guys
Surely  I miss you guys ! All the laugh during night time and other things that we did.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Perjuangan Maseh Berlaku

Pagi hari ini telah ku lalui satu peperangan yang dasyat yang meninggalkan kesan luka dalam dan luas. Namun, ku tetap tabah keluar dengan berani. *Kenape la ayat ni sengal sangat. HAHA!

Biasa lah kan musim musim PEPERIKSAAN ni. Macam macam ragam kita lihat. Ada yang sampai tak tidur berhari hari semata-mata menelaah buku masing masing. Ade pula yang tidur terlebih, tapi masa exam memang boleh dapat jawab. Orang orang macam ni buat diri ini rasa terseksa kenapa la diriku bukan begitu. Haizz.. Ape ape pun, bersyukur dengan apa yang ada dalam diri kita. Mungkin kita ada kelebihan kita dari dia. Kita pun tak tahu. Usaha itu penting. Betul kan?

3 hari lagi untuk peperangan ini berakhir. 3 hari. Ohh 3 hari yang terseksa. Tak pa, sementara sahaja. Lepas ini boleh berjimba. Haha, tak da lah. Habis peperangan kembali berkhidmat untuk bonda dan ayahanda yang berada di rumah pula. Menjadi drebar untuk adik yang akan menduduki PMR dan menjaga kucing kucing yang comel tapi nakal di rumah. HAHAHA...

Perjuangan untuk hidup tidak akan pernah selesai di mana saja kita berada. Tidak kira masa dan tempat. Semua itu perjuangan. Kalau ada yang putus asa tu, kita cuba tolong mereka. Sebab selalunya kalau dah putus asa dalam perjuangan ni, kira macam nak bunuh diri. Kan kan kan?

Akhir kata, hidup penuh cabaran dan dugaan, tempuhinya dengan tabah. Sentiasa ingat pada Yang Maha Esa, kerana Dia juga yang akan membantu kita. Jadi ingat, Agi Idup, Agi Ngelaban ! [Selagi Hidup, Selagi Berjuang !]

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Pencil and Eraser

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day.

For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

This is to all the parents out there...

Found this at my friends page. At first I thought it's just another simple story nothing interesting. But seeing everything and reading it. It really touched my heart. How true it can be. No, not how true. IT IS true. Our parents sacrifice many things for their children. In return, the children should do the same thing. Yet, many children now days neglect their parents, which had helped them in so many ways. Without our parents, who are we? We wouldn't even be here. 

Our parents had brought us up the best as they can, providing us with all the needs for life. Even if we are married our parents are still there for us. Hoping that everything that is ok with us. Ensuring nothing goes wrong in the relationship and so forth.

No parents hate their children. Children only think that way because at times they might not get the attention that they want. But remember, our parents always remember us. They pray for our well being. Parents love their children no matter how bad they are. If we look from the movie KL Gangster, where last time his mother didn't want him, but actually it hurt her to see her son go away like that. In the end we can see that Malek's mother still wants him back. Because, he is her son.

So everyone, love your parents first. Because they are the ones that is always with us. They help us in our life. Don't regret if they are no longer here with us in the world. Cherish all the moments that you have with them. No matter if they are your steps parents or even your guardian. Love them.

Friday, September 23, 2011

You're officially 19 !

Finally you are officially 19 ! See, I didn't forget about it. I remembered it ! Say congrats to me now ! HAHAHA. Just kidding. 

Known him for almost 5 years. Started to know him from Myspace. From the first look when he added he looked like a normal kid to me. But our friendship grew. From total strangers, we became friends. Sharing our opinion on things and at times our problems. Later it grew greater when both of us became best friends. He is a kind person, caring too. He's sweet, and adorable. Tender and gentle. Yet at times he can be extremely crazy and funny. Wouldn't stop laughing around when we have the time together. Even though I don't have the chance to meet him, and even our friendship grows from Myspace to Facebook to Blog, (it means virtually known la, hehe), but it doesn't stop us to be friends. We kind of depend on each other on some things. We share the common interest in photography and editing. P/S: He has the skills to edit nice photos, no joke. Getting to know you, makes me know what friendship truly means. Honestly I never quite had a best friend, but you changed it and become my best friend, you know how I can be at times, and I do also help you ok. Don't get touchy reading this. TEEHEE joke ! You're my dearest friend :)

Amezy Syafie, today is your special day. 
We might have not meet each other, YET. But surely one day we will meet and hang out and have tones tones tones of fun together. 
Semoga Allah memberi rahmat kepada anda. Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki juga. 
Not forgetting, Hope that our friendship would last forever :)
Happy Birthday Dear Friend 

Saturday, September 17, 2011

There is no wrong to it

Some people might belief in what I say. Some don't. That's life. There is no wrong to it. Especially when it comes to hope.

Here is a brief definition of HOPE :

 emotional state which promotes the belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life

Hope is a good thing actually. It helps us to feel good about something. Like in the definition, positive outcomes. That's what we want. POSITIVE. When we have positive energy in the body, many good things would come to us. In other words, the results that is given out, is the best results we would want to get. Hope + Dedicated Commitment would help oneself to achieve it. At least we know we could achieve something. Some people rely on hope to get them motivated OK.  

But too much hoping can lead to bad circumstances too. When someone hopes to high, they might ended up squashing themselves in grieve and would give up hoping. Well, that's not good. Maybe some people can do work without hoping anything. But it's kind of weird ain't it? You work hard, but in the end you just say, what I get is what I get. Kind of funny, still sounds like hope to me. Just that, it is torn between two things, you hope to get it, or you don't get it. See? Makes sense doesn't it? 

Some people are afraid to hope because they don't dare to hope. They are scared that it might break their hearts again. I remembered a teacher told me, if you have a small heart, you would get hurt easily, but if you have a big heart, even though there are many wound that's been hurting you, you wouldn't feel to much pain because you have a big heart. So shall we start to have big hearts everyone? 

Hope always give a new breath to you. Start to learn to hope, but remember, don't hope too high until you forget to commit yourself to the things that you should do. That way, you could achieve what you want. Don't be afraid, don't let go, because no matter where you go. HOPE is always with you. :)

Sunday, September 11, 2011


Jam 6.30 petang. 

Mak  berdiri di depan pintu. Wajah Mak kelihatan resah. Mak tunggu adik bungsu balik dari sekolah agama.

Ayah baru balik dari sawah. 

Ayah tanya Mak, “Along mana?’

Mak jawab, “Ada di dapur tolong siapkan makan.”

Ayah tanya Mak lagi,” Angah mana?”

Mak jawab, “Angah mandi, baru balik main bola.”

Ayah tanya Mak, “Ateh mana?”

Mak jawab, “Ateh, Kak Cik tengok tv dengan Alang di dalam?”

Ayah tanya lagi, “Adik dah balik?” 

Mak jawab, “Belum. Patutnya dah balik. Basikal adik rosak kot. Kejap lagi kalau tak balik juga jom kita pergi cari Adik.” 

Mak jawab soalan ayah penuh yakin. Tiap-tiap hari ayah tanya soalan yang sama. Mak jawab penuh perhatian. Mak ambil berat di mana anak-anak Mak dan bagaimana keadaan anak-anak Mak setiap masa dan setiap ketika. 

Dua puluh tahun kemudian 

Jam 6.30 petang 

Ayah balik ke rumah. Baju ayah basah. Hujan turun sejak tengahari. 

Ayah tanya Along, “Mana Mak?” 

Along sedang membelek-belek baju barunya.  Along jawab, “Tak tahu.” 

Ayah tanya Angah, “Mana Mak?” 

Angah  menonton tv.  Angah jawab, “Mana Angah tahu.” 

Ayah tanya Ateh, “Mana Mak?” 

Ayah menunggu lama jawapan dari Ateh  yang  asyik membaca majalah. 

Ayah tanya Ateh lagi, "Mana Mak?"  

Ateh  menjawab, “Entah.” 

Ateh terus membaca majalah tanpa menoleh kepada Ayah. 

Ayah tanya Alang, “Mana Mak?” 

Alang tidak jawab. Alang hanya mengoncang bahu tanda tidak tahu. 

Ayah tidak mahu tanya Kak Cik dan Adik yang sedang melayan facebook. Ayah tahu yang Ayah tidak akan dapat jawapan yang ayah mahu. 

Tidak ada siapa tahu di mana Mak. Tidak ada siapa merasa ingin tahu di mana Mak. Mata dan hati anak-anak Mak tidak pada Mak. Hanya mata dan hati Ayah yang mencari-cari di mana Mak. 

Tidak ada anak-anak Mak yang tahu setiap kali ayah bertanya, "Mana Mak?" 

Tiba-tiba adik bungsu bersuara, “Mak ni dah senja-senja pun merayap lagi. Tak reti nak balik!!” 

Tersentap hati Ayah mendengar  kata-kata Adik. 

Dulu anak-anak Mak akan berlari mendakap Mak apabila balik dari sekolah. Mereka akan tanya "Mana Mak?" apabila Mak tidak menunggu mereka di depan pintu. 

Mereka akan tanya, "Mana Mak." Apabila dapat nomor 1 atau kaki melecet main bola di padangsekolah.  Mak  resah apabila anak-anak Mak lambat balik. Mak  mahu tahu di mana semua anak-anaknya berada setiap waktu dan setiap ketika. 

Sekarang anak-anak sudah besar. Sudah lama anak-anak Mak tidak bertanya 'Mana Mak?" 

Semakin anak-anak  Mak besar, soalan "Mana Mak?" semakin hilang dari bibir anak-anak Mak . 

Ayah berdiri di depan pintu menunggu Mak. Ayah resah menunggu Mak kerana sudah senja sebegini Mak masih belum balik. Ayah risau kerana sejak akhir-akhir ini Mak selalu mengadu sakit lutut.

Dari jauh kelihatan sosok Mak berjalan  memakai payung yang sudah uzur. Besi-besi payung tercacak keluar dari kainnya. Hujan masih belum berhenti. Mak menjinjit dua bungkusan plastik. Sudah kebiasaan  bagi Mak, Mak akan bawa sesuatu untuk anak-anak Mak apabila pulang dari berjalan.  

Sampai di halaman rumah Mak berhenti di depan deretan kereta anak-anak Mak. Mak buangkan daun-daun yang mengotori kereta anak-anak Mak. Mak usap bahagian depan kereta Ateh perlahan-lahan. Mak rasakan seperti mengusap kepala Ateh waktu Ateh kecil. Mak senyum. Kedua bibir Mak diketap repat. Senyum tertahan, hanya Ayah yang faham. Sekarang Mak tidak dapat lagi merasa mengusap kepala anak-anak seperti masa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. Mereka sudah besar. Mak takut anak Mak akan menepis tangan Mak kalau Mak  lakukannya.

Lima buah kereta milik anak-anak Mak berdiri megah. Kereta Ateh paling gah. Mak tidak tahu pun apa kehebatan kereta Ateh itu. Mak cuma suka warnanya. Kereta warna merah bata, warna kesukaan Mak. Mak belum merasa naik kereta anak Mak yang ini. 

Baju mak basah kena hujan. Ayah tutupkan payung mak. Mak bagi salam. Salam Mak tidak berjawab. Terketar-ketar lutut Mak melangkah anak tangga. Ayah pimpin Mak masuk ke rumah. Lutut Mak sakit lagi. 

Mak letakkan  bungkusan di atas meja. Sebungkus rebung dan sebungkus  kueh koci pemberian Mak Uda untuk anak-anak Mak. Mak Uda tahu anak-anak Mak suka makan kueh koci dan Mak malu untuk meminta untuk bawa balik. Namun raut wajah Mak sudah cukup membuat Mak Uda  faham. 

Semasa menerima bungkusan kueh koci dari Mak Uda tadi, Mak  sempat berkata kepada Mak Uda, "Wah berebutlah budak-budak tu nanti nampak kueh koci kamu ni."

Sekurang-kurangnya itulah bayangan Mak. Mak bayangkan anak-anak Mak sedang gembira menikmati kueh koci sebagimana masa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. Mereka berebut dan Mak jadi hakim pembuat keputusan muktamat. Sering kali Mak akan beri bahagian Mak supaya anak-anak Mak puas makan. Bayangan itu sering singgah di kepala Mak.

Ayah suruh Mak tukar baju yang basah itu. Mak akur.

Selepas Mak tukar baju, Ayah iring Mak ke dapur.  Mak ajak anak-anak Mak makan kueh koci. Tidak seorang pun yang menoleh kepada Mak. Mata dan hati anak-anak Mak sudah bukan pada Mak lagi.

Mak hanya tunduk, akur dengan keadaan. 

Ayah tahu Mak sudah tidak boleh mengharapkan anak-anak melompat-lompat gembira  dan  berlari mendakapnya seperti dulu. 

Ayah temankan Mak makan. Mak menyuap nasi perlahan-lahan, masih mengharapkan anak-anak Mak akan makan bersama. Setiap hari Mak berharap begitu. Hanya Ayah yang duduk bersama Mak di meja makan  setiap malam. 

Ayah tahu Mak penat sebab berjalan jauh. Siang tadi Mak pergi ke rumah Mak Uda di kampung seberang untuk mencari rebung. Mak hendak  masak rebung masak lemak cili api dengan ikan masin kesukaan anak-anak Mak.  

Ayah tanya Mak kenapa Mak tidak telepon suruh anak-anak jemput. Mak jawab, "Saya dah suruh Uda telepon budak-budak ni tadi. Tapi Uda kata semua tak  berangkat." 

Mak  minta Mak Uda telepon anak-anak yang Mak tidak boleh berjalan  balik sebab hujan. Lutut Mak akan sakit kalau sejuk. Adasedikit harapan di hati Mak agar salah seorang anak Mak akan menjemput Mak dengan kereta.  Mak teringin kalau Ateh yang datang menjemput Mak dengan kereta barunya. Tidak ada siapa yang datang jemput Mak.

Mak tahu anak-anak mak tidak sedar telepon berbunyi. Mak  ingat kata-kata ayah, “Kita tak usah susahkan anak-anak. Selagi kita mampu kita buat saja sendiri apa-apa pun.  Mereka ada kehidupan masing-masing. Tak payah sedih-sedih. Maafkan sajalah anak-anak kita. Tak apalah kalau tak merasa  menaiki kereta mereka sekarang. Nanti kalau kita mati kita masih ada peluang  merasa anak-anak   mengangkat kita kat bahu mereka.” 

Mak faham buah hati Mak semua sudah besar. Along dan Angah sudah beristeri. Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik masing-masing sudah punya buah hati sendiri yang sudah mengambil tempat Mak di hati anak-anak Mak. 

Pada suapan terakhir, setitik air mata Mak jatuh ke pinggan. 

Kueh koci masih belum diusik oleh anak-anak Mak. 

Beberapa tahun kemudian 

Mak Uda tanya  Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik, “Mana mak?”. 

Hanya Adik yang jawab, “Mak dah tak ada.”  

Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik tidak sempat melihat Mak waktu Mak sakit. 

Kini Mak sudah berada di sisi Tuhannya bukan di sisi anak-anak Mak lagi. 

Dalam isakan tangis, Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik menerpa kubur Mak.  Hanya batu nisan yang berdiri terpacak. Batu nisan Mak tidak boleh bersuara. Batu nisan tidak ada tangan macam tangan Mak yang selalu memeluk erat anak-anaknya apabila anak-anak datang menerpa  Mak semasa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. 

Mak pergi semasa Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik berada jauh di bandar. Kata Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik mereka tidak dengar handphone berbunyi semasa ayah telepon untuk beritahu mak sakit tenat. 

Mak faham, mata dan telinga anak-anak Mak adalah untuk orang lain bukan untuk Mak. 

Hati anak-anak Mak bukan milik Mak lagi. Hanya hati Mak yang tidak pernah diberikan kepada sesiapa, hanya untuk anak-anak Mak..  

Mak tidak sempat merasa diangkat di atas bahu anak-anak Mak. Hanya bahu ayah yang sempat mengangkat jenazah Mak dalam hujan renyai. 

Ayah sedih sebab tiada lagi suara Mak yang akan menjawab soalan Ayah, 

"Mana Along?" , "Mana Angah?", "Mana Ateh?", "Mana Alang?", "Mana Kak Cik?" atau "Mana Adik?".  Hanya Mak saja yang rajin menjawab soalan ayah itu dan jawapan Mak memang tidak pernah silap. Mak sentiasa yakin dengan jawapannya sebab mak ambil tahu di mana anak-anaknya berada pada setiap waktu dan setiap ketika. Anak-anak Mak sentiasa di hati Mak tetapi hati anak-anak Mak ada orang lain yang mengisinya. 

Ayah sedih. Di tepi kubur Mak, Ayah bermonolog sendiri, "Mulai hari ini  tidak perlu bertanya lagi kepada Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik , "Mana mak?" "

Kereta merah Ateh bergerak perlahan membawa Ayah pulang. Along, Angah, Alang dan Adik mengikut dari belakang. Hati ayah hancur teringat hajat Mak untuk naik kereta merah Ateh tidak kesampaian. Ayah terbayang kata-kata Mak malam itu, "Cantiknya kereta Ateh, kanBang? Besok-besok Ateh bawalah kita jalan-jalan kat Kuala Lumpurtu. Saya akan buat kueh koci buat bekal."

"Ayah, ayah....bangun." Suara Ateh memanggil ayah. Ayah pengsan sewaktu turun dari kereta Ateh.. 

Terketar-ketar ayah bersuara, "Mana Mak?"    

Ayah  tidak mampu berhenti menanya soalan itu. Sudah 10 tahun Mak pergi namun soalan "Mana Mak?"  masih sering keluar dari mulut Ayah sehingga ke akhir usia. 

Sebuah cerita pendek buat tatapan anak-anak yang kadang-kadang lupa perasaan ibu. Kata orang hidup seorang ibu waktu muda dilambung resah, apabila tua dilambung rasa. Kata Rasulullah saw. ibu 3 kali lebih utama dari ayah. Bayangkanlah berapa kali ibu lebih utama dari isteri, pekerjaan dan anak-anak sebenarnyaSolat sunat pun Allah suruh berhenti apabila ibu memanggil. Berapa kerapkah kita membiarkan deringan telepon panggilan dari ibu tanpa berjawab? 

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Hanya Kerna Perfume

Tersebut al-kisah seorang jejaka ini. Nak kata dia ni prim and proper, kadang kala dia akan bergaya. Tapi bila tiba waktu dia nak selekeh, memang selekeh juga.

Tapi kisah kali ini mengenai diri dia apabila terlupa akan perfumenya. Pada saya agak kelakar juga, sebab selalunya kita akan nampak perempuan merengek sebab tak siap cantik cantik, wangi wangi kan? Tapi pada kali ini saya dapat melihat reaksi seorang lelaki apabila dia terlupa akan perfumenya.

Tidak saya sangka seorang lelaki boleh merengek dan merengut macam perempuan akibat tak pakai perfume. Walaupun dia punya deodorant dah ada bau wangi tapi dia still perlukan perfume dia. Dia kata tak cukup wangi lagi.

Terkejut juga sebab dia berperangai macam tu. Sebab tak pernah pernah lagi jadi dia macam tu. Tapi bila dapat tengok depan mata sendiri, baru la tahu, yang lelaki ni, cerewet juga pasal penampilan diri mereka. Diaorang ni, ada dalam pemikiran diaorang, yang orang akan fikir juga pasal diri mereka. Bukannya mereka ni tak kesah langsung pasal penampilan diri.

Cuma kadang kala tu, kita tak nampak yang mereka ni cerewet, sebab mereka pandai control. Kalau perempuan kita boleh nampak mereka akan jaga penampilan betul betul. Lelaki sorok sorok. Betul ke? HAHA ! Bergantung kepada individu tersendiri juga.

Setiap orang ada cara mereka sendiri. Kita cuma boleh perhati :)

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Eight Below

Maybe some of you guys have watched the movie Eight Below, where eight dogs were left behind during an expedition but manage to survive by themselves without their owner. It's funny to see how well the dogs had kept themselves well. Sure it's kind of a sad story, but it truly inspired me.

I'm surprise with the courage that the dogs have. They could survive for more than 100 days. The way they bring themselves and stay in their pack. The teamwork. How I wish we as humans could take that as an inspiration to us. Maybe some of you guys agree with me and some don't. I don't mind about it. This is my opinion on it.

Lately as we can see, we the humans, keep having negative thinking. Examples like, talking back about others, playing bad tricks, making fun of people and etc. Don't you think that these things should be gone for this world to be a happy place for everyone to live in?

Why do we need to fight among one another? Why do we need to kill among one another? Why can't people just be happy about the things that they have? Bukan ke Islam mengajar kita untuk bersyukur? Why need to greed? I think its time for us to actually stop thinking of oneself and start thinking for the others. Who knows one day we could all live in a happy world. No wars, no crimes, no bad things that's for sure.

Maybe some of you think that I'm just writing crap here, but if we think about it, it would expand and impact to a large number of people. Don't you think that is good? I certainly think that it is good. So people, lets try to make this a better life and a better place to live in :)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Apa Itu Raya?

Entri ini nak cerita sedikit apa itu raya terhadap diri saya. Pada saya, raya yang sebenar apabila satu keluarga tu berkumpul bersama sama di kampung. Menolong berkemas kemas untuk siap pada satu syawal yang bakal menjelma. Bergurau senda ramai ramai melakukan semua kerja. Sama sama penat, sama sama beegembira. Itu baru nama keluarga yang bahagia ingin meyambut raya. Raya akan menjadi lebih bermakna kalau semua tu jadi. Seronok ramai ramai ni. Dari sorang sorang atau pun satu keluarga sahaja yang melakukan segala galanya. Silap hari bulan timbul perasaan sakit hati dan saling tidak berpuas hati. Nanti tak jadi manis la bukan? Berpendam perasaan. Marah. Dengki. Tak seronok la raya itu nanti.

Jadi kalau boleh, ada mana mana pihak yang sentiasa tak suka memberi tolong. Ataupun tolong menolong antara satu sama lain. Ubah sikap itu. Takut nanti ada yang tidak berpuas hati. Silap bulan purnama datang, terkena batang hidung sendiri balik, tidak pasal pasal diri merasa sakit hati nanti.

Seronok kan ramai ramai macam ni?
Macam keluarga bahagia :)
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