Meaning of life?

It's been a long time that I didn't update this. for nearly a year I didn't open it. Maybe just a little lazy to write. Well, that's me.
It's 2010 and it's nearing to an end. its already October. I'm currently studying in UiTM Alor Gajah Melaka. Learning Communication and media studies or rather known as MASSCOM.
Lately, many things happen to me. Things that are mostly an eye opening to me. It's like I just wake up from a really long sleep. Learning the true meaning of life is a really difficult thing for me.
There are many ups and downs here. Mostly you depend things on yourself.
I keep having emotional breakdowns now and then. I know it sounds suck, but that is the truth.

My love life. No more I guess. Finding a true love is a hard thing. It takes time for it. A relationship that was nearing it's 1 year anniversary. Gone just like that. I'm really confuse with myself at the moment. Should I be loved? Well, that question I guess I have to hold on for a while.

Studies are more important now. I really want to be a successful person. A person that my parents will be proud of me. A person that is useful to herself. A person that is useful for the country. So many things that I want to achieve.

So many things that I want to say. Just I can't find the words to say. I really can't reach my voice that much. Guess, I'm just used to keeping myself quiet and not to tell problems to others.

What is the meaning of life? A question that is hard to be answered.

SPM IS ALMOST OVER!

the very last paper is coming up. i really can't believe it. after a few weeks of perjuangan. finally its coming to an end. the whole journey was kind of a little fun? o.O well, mostly its just full of pressure. hey its SPM. "your future" the kind of thing. after this i can start updating more on my blog. its like what? i dunno how many months i didn't update my blog.

i really wonder what will i feel next year. waking up on the first day of school and think, hey i've finished school. what to do now? O.O thinking of finding a job.. better than just staying home not doing anything.. at least i'm going out to find some money. later can use it when i get into university.

time flies so fast now. people are changing.. the world is changing.. dunia dah maju, zaman dh berubah.. hehehe...

SPM trials

its been a long time i haven't updated this blog. lolz. well. trials of course. been cracking my heat like s***! exam started like a few days ago. so, frequently i had took 8 papers. ans there are still tones to go ==. [dear god, plz let me survive this]

first day of trials, i had 3 papers. accounts 2, bm 1 and history 1. on the second day was only accounts paper, so it was just easy since that its only a,b,c,d. can just like choose it. the only time that i actually MATI SYAHID in class was during chemistry. Holy C**** the paper was damn hard! all of us were so tensed up that i think many mati syahid already that time.

1 thing for sure, know i'm going to fail my chem3 trials paper ==" all because of what? not answering section C.. T^$@T&*@T*R&@# haizz... sure one die die die die! all because of the paper was stapled wrongly. and i was soooo stupid to actually not to look at the back page. ==" guess i was just so blur to get that paper already. and i can't believe that pn.H actually laughed at me when i said the paper was hard. Cikgu, paper tu mmg ssh ok... =="
enough of chem3.. no want talk about it X(

yesterdays paper was ok. at lest i could answer most of the questions. So, it can be considered as easy. history paper 2 and also agama islam paper 1. can laa do. not much prob there.

the only prob will be next week. more papers to come. haizz.. pray for me so that i wouldn't do stupid mistakes again.. Aminn~

Dang It

school is closed. like pn. L said.. this is not a holiday. it is a BREAK.. stuck at home for the next 1 week.. not that i'm not happy about it. just that. it's going to be so so so so so so boring! ok, maybe some of you think that my school has H1N1.. fyi, no. the ministtry of health asked us to closed down coz there are many sick girls. so, precaution is take and they decided to close the school.
damn you H1N1 virus!
GAHHHH!

P.M.S

Have you all ever heard about the word PMS? I'm guessing that majority of us knows what is PMS right? Well, right now, I'm not talking about the usual PMS that you people know. Want to know what is it? Ok, ok, don't be fussy. I'll tell.

Have you people ever think to make different words out of the initial PMS? Maybe some do, some maybe no. I've got to know some funny words that you can make out of PMS. For example, PMS = Problem Matic Shern. HAHA! Yeah, that was something that some of my classmates made up. They eveen wrote, PMS = Pissed Mad Sabrini. No sense of humour that I can find there. Seriously no offesense girls. The fun part came when our physic's teacher came into class. Maybe some of you have actually get to know who she is.[I posted something about her here a few months ago]. We still actually try to get to her about the "thing". LOL!

Ok, back to the story. We were learning about semiconductor diodes, until she got towards the second board and saw the PMS that was written. All of us started to giggle and laugh when she made her famous face. Most of us stopped laughing, but Michelle was still laughing. When this happens, our beloved teacher made a conclusion on the found letter of P.M.S. Want to know what she says?

P: Probably
M: Mad
S: Students

All of us burst in a huge fit. It took about 5 minutes for us to actually stop laughing. So now girls, you girls can use PMS on guys! How cool is that? Hahahaha! Usually guys tease you on this right? now its time to get back to them! Guys can also have PMS! ahaha! xP
This all thanks to my beloved Physics teacher!